Sunday, January 6, 2019

EPIC

The last three days I spent with Eric were EPIC.  That is the word we would both use to describe it and seeing it in print, switch the P with an R and I've got my Eric! Epic Eric. Sweet.

Day One, incredible sex.  The relaxed kind where everyone takes it slow, worries about nothing, and enjoys the magical taste and touch of the other.  Ending in conversations between the sheets. Then Eric in blue jeans and a white t-shirt (yes, the one I'm sleeping in) heading out to grab us a sandwich; both famished.

Day Two, the strip tease.  I still blush, embarrassed that I am such a silly girl but flattered that Eric reacted so well.  Again, amazing sex.  He couldn't hold back if he tried.

Day Three, tears at the airport.  Raw. Authentic. Vulnerable.

Eric asked me how I am really doing today. Really.  I wrote a six page letter letting him know all of the sadness and hurt I have with him being gone. I know he read it but now, silence.  I should have stuck with epic.  Here I am blogging to everyone to say what you need, tell what you want... and then I put everything in words to the man who has my heart in his hands and feel as though I just drove a wedge between us.

The guy brain would have stayed with Epic, let everything else go. 

Girl brain.  Ugh.  You haunt me.

We've all been here.  Said something that might have hurt our partner, not wanting to hurt him but floundering and needing to answer the question, "How are you?"

I'm a mess.

Amy-the-mess-Lynn

8 comments:

  1. Sending huge (((hugs))) Amy. Eric/epic...love it!

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  2. Hugs Amy! Epic Eric has read it. He isnt ignoring you. He is processing your words, and busy trying to get back to you!

    Girl brain does suck! I think he is proud of you for being honest with your answer. Hold on to that! And now get busy doing everything you have put off. You can do this Amy. Epic Eric knows it,I know it, now you need to believe it!

    Hugs and love
    Boo

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  3. Hi Amy, :) Good that you are writing! You know, my guess is that Eric most definitely knows you. When he reads your words, he understands the missing. Knows that it is something that you feel because he is away. Give yourself a break, and just take things as they come. Hard to do at times.❤️

    Epic and Eric! Cute! Many Hugs,

    ❤️Katie xoxo

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  4. It's hard to sit with silence. Sending hugs and courage - you can't actually read his mind. <3

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  5. Stick with the honesty. Sam doesn't always understand the "girl" brain, but he makes me know that he will be there for me no matter what.

    Yours is a difficult situation, one that many military wives face. Look online to see if there are any groups in your town/city that could be a support system.

    Hugs From Ella

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  6. Amy,
    Knowing well the agony of deployments, I always looked for help. Friends and support groups were always essential and that is just what I found. Being proactive here will really help. I know this because I lived this.
    Meredith

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  7. R,B,K,O,E,M,
    Thank you all for writing me in my time of complete panic. Eric's command is, "Turn off the girl brain, Amy Lynn. We are good and will answer every question you have when we talk on the weekend." Yay. I'm beat. Emotional roller coasters are hard. And, I am going to look up support groups for partners who hae to be away from each other. Great idea!!!
    Amy

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