Sunday, April 22, 2018
A step back in time - YASP
The card was signed YASP. Back in the day,
I used to find Eric's business card on my windshield with "YASP!" sketched next to his name. "You are so pretty". Those letters sent me through a time machine of falling in love...
Eric discovered my favorite animal is the elephant. He surprised me with a trip to the zoo, handmade a card for me with a fun fact, "Elephants don't eat peanuts" and gave me a box of animal crackers that I still have. That was the day I wished he would hold my hand, even though I'd been pushing him away.
Having been on my own for a long time, Eric did little things, like leave a bag
of fertilizer on my front porch when it was time to get the lawn greened up.
Suddenly, the single girl had the best yard on the block.
So many memories. I used to write Eric cards everyday that he was gone. He used to surprise me with a massage certificate, or a card just letting me know he loves me. Sometimes he would get me at work for a quick lunch in the middle of the day "Come on Amy, I got a hall pass, let's play!". I used to undo his belt, slide down his zipper, and play with him under the table while chatting about mundane topics so the neighboring tables had no interest in us. He brought me to life sexually and sometimes I just couldn't resist, him.
I love what we have today and don't want to give any of it up, but I do miss the days of hot pursuit and playful gestures on both of our parts. I've got my glow sticks and toy waiting at the sliding glass door with a soft picnic blanket and a heart full of anticipation. 11 days. "YASP" he says. "YASP"