I'm trying to let go and let Eric take the lead.
Yesterdays spanking was the most "freeing" and probably the first time I truly let myself be guided by what was in his mind rather than trying to have him do it "my way". Not easy. My way is what I am used to and though I want things to be different, it's hard to trust and let go.
The conversation I'd like to have with him is.... would a boot camp or maintenance type of thing be a better way to get us used to having him take on a stronger role in this? We honestly NEVER considered either because this lifestyle to us was more of a support role for the things I was trying to achieve in my life. Kind of a reset for when I get overwhelmed. However, as we progress, it's the incredible intimacy we both feel when he can take me in hand that is growing the love between us and it is the letting go of the stress of having to do everything myself that is providing the greatest relief.
How did you let go? How did he take that lead? And boot camp? Maintenance? Yes? No?